i have spent about five months of my life in a special building. a building where all the walls were totally black and people forced me to do things against my will...or "her" will. i have faced a dark hole - a time when some people didn´t let me go home because of fear. they thought i wasn´t capable to make it all through.
the building is full of memories..
i don´t know how many fallen tears i have had during fall and i just felt to give up. i don´t know how many times i have been full of anger and felt hopeless. i dont know how many mondays i have been filled with anguish or how many tuesdays i felt apart in pieces and cried. i don´t know how many horrible things i´ve seen. it´s all so sad. really sad. i hated what they forced me to do. but without them, i would have been dead today. they helped me to save myself.
i am back in the building this week but with another perspective. i am not part of it all anymore..or i can see the things in a different way. the walls are not totally black. but it hurts to see so many people suffer. they are all fighting so hard. wish so badly i could take all their pain away. i still have a long way to walk, but i am walking every day. some days it´s a really hard wind, almost storm, and it´s hard to move forward. but i´m still walking. a walk of life. i choose life and really hope my friends will do it too.
with all my love to everyone who suffer. there is hope.
it´s a hard fight, but it´s worth it.
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"Can´t Give Up Now"
There will be mountains that I will have to climb
And there will be battles that I will have to fight
But victory or defeat, it´s up to me to decide
But how can I expect to win If I never try.
I just can´t give up now
I´ve come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I dont believe he brought me this far to leave me
Never said there wouldn´t be trials
Never said I wouldt fall
Never said that everything would go the way I want it to go
But when my back is against the wall
And I feel all hope is gone,
I´ll just lift my head up to the sky
And say help me to be strong
I just can´t give up now
I´ve come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don´t believe he brought me this far to leave me
No you didn´t bring me out here to leave me lonely
Even when I can´t see clearly
I know that you are with me (so I can´t)
I just can´t give up now
I´ve come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I dont believe he brought me this far to leave me
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love